Despair

The momentary soothing, 
the smoke courses through my body 
burning holes, it reaches my soul 
I will myself to open my eyes 
but I give up ‘cos I can’t

I can feel the hot tracks 
my face merges with the tears 
the sweet sadness touches my lips 
I will myself to open my eyes
but I give up ‘cos I can’t

I started out with hope 
I started out with faith 
now I embrace the darkness
I will myself to open my eyes 
but I give up ‘cos I can’t

I scavenge for moments of peace
I starve for bits of laughter 
I’ve been feeding on despair far too long
I will myself to open my eyes 
but I give up ‘cos I can’t